With Love Mardiana Ahmad: She's said, She's Trying

You & I.... ( A story about Him and Her...)

Should it be? Or it's all was wrong from da beginning?

But there is no ending without starting. There is no laughing without tears....

...She said it's OK, dat she will managed along da way. She's tried to stay but she had it enough. She realized dat He's way too good for her, dat they will not make it. But kan why he don't see what she can see at dat very moment. He ignored it and even said in a relationship there should be, must be and will always be a DIFFERENCES between two different people.

Pada mulanya, differences makes them even closer, and both just being themselves not more or less. He such a shy person, humble, RELIGIOUS, sangat penyabar, and he always had the answers for her sometimes silly and "intelligence" questions. She never be leave without any possible answers dat he will combined with the Science and not for get the religion based. He always be the biggest supporter to her, always....always...and forever.

They were together but its hard to feel each other, one of da thing dat make her rili in hurt as he never...never ...never said .....what she mean for him.... Action was there but, come on la ...let her know... She only can see dat she so important to U. But it's not enough....and yes da world is not enough....(aisehhhhh)

It wont be long, as she was soooo sure dat there will be a day to end all dis. Time anad yes time da main factor here.Walking as far as dis will make sum1 stay and end it as planned but it's been a long journey oridi. When sum1 had it enough nothing can stopped it. Not even da people who will turned and back-up everything for U.

Yeap...she rili pray dat sum1 like U will appear in her life, and it was U. That rili sent her to paradise when da journey had been for almost what? 8 years?8 1/2 years??? Wow long journey huh??? But end up nothing? She's will be sad of coz la, it's a long relationship bah. Siapa tia mau good ending?? Good ending is every body dream, but people U need to be realistic, Islam juga mensyariatkan supaya kita berpasangan dgn yg seKufu. Sekufu sini bermaksud Jodoh yang sekufu, adalah sesuatu yang cliche. Ramai yang berkata2 tentang jodoh sekufu dan ini memang benar kerana telah dijelaskan dalam hadis Rasulullah SAW berbunyi “Tiada perkahwinan seorang anak perempuan kecuali dengan wali, dan tiada perkahwinan seorang wanita kecuali dengan lelaki yang sekufu dengannya”.

When she said dis and dat U think dat she's not serious, U pikir dia main2 ja....na ni kali la juga she' rili determine to move on and let passed be past.

One thing dat make da relationship alive till today are the family.... She used to mingled with da family so easy...supposed she leave the family easily. She stuck right now as she rili missed all of it; da memories, da joked, da advised and all of da talked. She was so thankful to have no problem to mingle with da gurls. Well of coz there was an up's and down along da way, but they learn along the way to take her as she are. All of his Sisters n Ummi are very kind, dun know if she will meet other family like dat.

She's trying to be strong, so dat she will not keep thinking of U, so dat there will be no tears, no pain, no emotion dat will be drawn into dat path of life. Wished it never happened, but we need to let go.

She missed U much, but there are things dat are more important beside thinking about what they had dreamed and wished will happened.

She's decided dat she will "washed" Him away from her life....but she admitted dat it quite impossible, yet she is still trying. Everyday she will try her best not to think about U. But is it enough??? When Ur beloved Ummi n Sisters will be a there to talk to her, . They will make da feelings grow and alive, (aiyo susah ni oooooo)

Syukur la, she had all of her family n friends to keep her real. Some people will loss some of their based in life but she rili manage it so well. Not even some1 can tell how much pain dat she carried, how much tears had accompany her. But it's all OK bah, better she's crying now, she can keep busy with all of her work and stuff, friends to laugh with and family to get da comfort.

I don't think dat she ever get da problem as other people said to be the symptoms such as " mandi x bash, makan x kenyang" all of dis are rubbish according to her... It's end so what's da point not to eat...or even hurt yourself? No way...She will do dat. She's very optimist right now...very positive and had found half of her dream, and now another small stage to reach where she want to be.

No matter what she will do in her life she will be smile and proud dat He used to walk next to her in the journey of love.... the journey of life assist them to be who they are. In love, life as an individual towards family and our love ones. Responsibilities to the religion has improve, thanks for his guidance, trust me people she rili appreciate it.

Yeap ......she's trying to keep herself together, as it rili important not to lost it. Yes she's trying harder...trying harder to what she want to be.

This life we oridy decided where to go, with who, how it possible and a big question of why????

Why she;s started it? why she ended it? why she failed not to think about him?? Where she got all da courage to let it be??

I'll pray dat she will be orite,.....

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